My baby cat has a new home 😞. I’m happy she is in a wonderful place and settling in so well but oh my it’s breaking my heart.

We took her out there on Monday night. I told Ian I wanted to be there to make sure she was ok. I cried my heart out on the way. I held it together mostly when we were helping her settle in. I cried myself sick on the way home having left her behind.

Cosmos has been my baby girl for nearly 7 years. Getting her into a new home has made this all hit home even harder than moving out did. It’s almost at no going back point. I think I like to keep fooling myself into thinking he is going to change his mind and I can have my life back. But even if he did, it would never be the same 😢

I’m in a different city from him now. Just for a few days. I’m hoping the space will help sort my head out and not do the opposite and just make me miss him more. I’m talking a lot about moving to the Gold Coast in the near future to start again… But my heart isn’t feeling it yet. Stupid thing wants what it cannot have.

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